Jealous, Burned Out, and Agitated.
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Life can be such a piss off sometimes. I feel like nothing seems to go right - at least with me. I'm sure everyone has felt like this at some point in their life; so you may be able to relate. Lately, I've been feeling like Downer Debbie or in my own words a grumpy bear for a number of reasons... This is where I become ungrateful Saf: and although I have food to eat, a nice warm bed, and clothes to wear (when there are people out there who have none), I feel like MY life generally sucks. You know that feeling were nothing goes your way? Like EVER?! Story of my life!
JEALOUS. When someone gets something that I want and I don't have it. There I said it. I'm one of those super jealous people out there who wants everything that everyone else has. I realize I sound very sad, superficial and materialistic but it's the truth. It's like when you were a kid, and you've been saving up all of your babysitting money for months to buy that new fancy red bike and then the kid down the street gets it and you just stand and stare. Yeah. That.
BURNED OUT. Just generally tired of not having anything go my way. It's like WHHEEEEENNN will things get better? I can't help but sulk about this, since I feel like I try, and work so hard to do things right but I feel like I haven't gotten anything out of it ... I feel like I've been driving for days and I keep hitting dead ends.
AGITATED. Another word for annoyed and frustrated. I'm so agitated with life its ridiculous! I just want things to get better. I don't need to be a millionaire and have big fancy things, I just want a little more than I have now, with a little more freedom. Is that to much to ask?
Hoping for better days,
- SMS XO